I’m going through a big life change.
In talking with others, I’ve taken to calling it my good quarter-life crisis.
God is working in me. It’s hard to really explain the feeling of him drawing nearer to me but that is indeed what it feels like.
I think it started as we began getting to know others at Cave Spring Baptist Church over the past few months and especially in the community group we have joined.
Not only do I feel these amazing people pouring into me, but I also feel as though God is pushing them in as well.
I haven’t had this kind of christian community in my entire life. In fact, the closest thing I can think of was probably high school at church camp when I truly became a believer. And even then, I was mostly surrounded by school friends who, like me, took the gospel in but not to heart.
My life and walk with God has been, as I described it to Jon Rice (one of my pastors who has been discipling me), two linear lines - a secular one, and a Godly one - that throughout my faith journey have been closer or farther from one another depending on many various factors.
I want these two lines to be one. I want my secular life to be filled with God and shine through me like a beacon in the night. I want my work, hobbies, family, friendships, the things I create both online and off to show Jesus in me.
I have lived a long time trying to balance a Godly life and a secular life. Which, in all honesty, is just dumb. It’s time to turn my back on the things that have no “kingdom value” AND love others well.
Glorifying God in EVERYTHING I do has always been my prayer but I want to actually start living out that life.
There is no balance between Godly life and secular life. There is only life with and for Jesus or a life without.
I am not my own but belong body and soul both in life and in death to my faithful savior Jesus Christ.
It’s not going to be easy and in some instances I am trying to quit things “cold turkey”. But that’s just it. “For what shall it profit a man if he shall gain the whole world and lose his own soul?” Mark 8:36
Our father in heaven owns the cattle on a thousand hills. The world was never ours to begin with, we are only here as stewards of God’s kingdom.
May it be so with me.